what i did on Saturday. BBQ at Adaye's place...

4th of July (by Sakkis, Orth and Boldt after watching the fireworks at Alamo Square Park 2010)

I was born to be your man
Blowing bubbles on San Simeon
A Ritz crackers summer
Whistling Towns on the Cul De Sac

There’s a cucumber waitin’ for its brine
There’s bread sitting by the toast
I don’t know how to change
I guess that’s what hurts me the most

Walk hallways skirting rooms
Not knowing our fellows + their bric a brac
Their dust bunnies, their thick+ shallow spaces
Hoping we’ll find it quicker in one another’s faces

Walked in the restaurant on a Chevy's
Birthday, when our cousins are frozen
We can't tell where to pop in the car
Stupidly calling condos "condoms"

Let’s watch all those fireworks
On the hill whiskey + beers
Let’s laugh at those assholes
And we’ll call it all souvenirs

Shut-ups + all my one + onlyies
Fill a heart with syrup let it all be thick
Watch ‘splosions + their sisters
Wake-up w/ a hankering for morning

What kind of sailor do u take me for?
That u might find a seashell in place
Of a rib humming mechanics all over
The place, and what a goddamed mess
It all is living blue by the sea

I might have a bellyache
I might have lice
I think I got AIDS
From loving Jesus Christ

Whose Daddy do you want to be?
And whose Mama are you already
It’s party time on couchsurft.net
And I’m all up on you + me

Well I was born to be your baby

And u were born to be my baby, if only we

Were born at those hills we could
Be souvenirs bought and forgotten
Whose daddy u forgot to be

New Year's Eve 2009

SATURDAY MOLOTOV'S TWINS

not drinking for a week is amazing. i've lost 5 pounds, my skin is dewy, my mood is out of sight, my mind is multi-tracked, my girlfriend got hit on by a neo-nazi on the bus and i didn't even flinch, i'm feeling alright.

dreamt that CA Conrad and Tony Hawk were reading together in Chicago via Top Chef's Michael Voltaggio who might be Hawk's doppelwhat...

dreamt that Suzanne Stein had a beautiful book of translations published by Ugly Duckling Presse via seeing Matvei read for Artifact last Friday night...

ate lemon chicken, buttered yams, fresh string beans and rice pilaf for dinner last night...ate 3 mini-apple pies w/ some pecan ice cream for desert...

watched the Top Chef Las Vegas marathon w/ my sister. all caught up but fell asleep during the Natalie Portman "i'm a vegetarian" episode...it's hard for me to stay awake past 10:30pm if i'm not drinking...what's the point? shows should be on earlier for the detox demographic.

spent a lovely last Saturday-day hoping around the hood with C. first Amoeba for hella records, then i was rude to C. and said something mean about her sun glasses, then American Apparel shoegaze, then the army surplus store for a beanie, then the walk back down to the LH for unloading of goods at my place, then a nice day old sushi lunch provided by ORTH, then saddling back up and out the door headed to CC Rider on Divis for clothes shopping, but the store is as big as my office (small) and the store clerk/owner was folding clothes in front of the men's sweatshirts so it was awkward so we just left, then over to The Other Store for neato junk shop browsing, i bought my mom a Christmas gift, then back down Divis for dollar sidewalk beers at Beanbag...and then the sun went down...then back to my place to get warmer...then C. leaving to go meet up with her friends for dinner and me getting dropped off at Brandon's house, bye C.!, then Brandon and ORTH and Lindsey backyard beer imbibes, i think they had already had 3 dozen beers by the time i got there, everyone looked haggard and beautiful at the same time, then Brandon takes it upstairs for the all too predictable Miley Cyrus "dance party," retch..., then Ellen emerges from her room, then i spot a naked lady with a sexy s-curve (like the bridge!) across the courtyard, so i stand outside smoking and leering and then Ellen comes out and then Brandon and we're all staring but then the sexy girl moves a little bit and we realize it's actually a non-sexy dude standing in his boxer shorts...weird shadows made dude look like a sexy naked lady s-curve...damn...and then Brandon got the hic ups and i attacked everybody in sight...i got Brandon on the bed and crushed him, i crushed Brandon against the living room wall, i poked ORTH in the throat and then went for Mathew, oh yeah, Matthew showed up as well...so then i went for Matthew but he put up a pretty good fight in the kitchen...and then i think i sat on Lindsey but ORTH gave me the stink eye so i got up real quick...and then they all made me go buy more beer...woke up the next day with The Shame so i texted everybody that i had The Shame...but everybody got back to me and said "why...you ALWAYS do that...it's funny..."...so my Shame went away.

this is largely a name-drop post, unapologetically...

had a great time reading at Books And Bookshelves last night...Tinker Greene is a totally great and it was super hearing him read...

had a nice conversation with Rick London who i had previously only been in touch with by email. what up Rick London?!

sold some books to people i didn't know which is always nice...

grew my mustache out for the occasion of Micah Ballard and Sunnylyn THBX's 9th anniversary...i now have a mustache that's not going any where anytime soon. maybe.

was made to feel like a wee rock star by the two high school girls from SOTA who came up to me after the reading and bought my books and shook my hand and had me autograph them (the books) and then ask for my email so they could give it to their teacher so she could invite me to their class...what up Brandon?! SOTA part II?

and then was made to feel like an even bigger wee rock star by the girl who asked if she could interview me for the USF school newspaper...meanwhile C. is seriously getting a kick out of this seeing her dude chatting up the young gals...and i'm getting a kick out of being interviewed and trying not to swear to much sapping my big silver can of Coors Light...rocky mountain fresh and shit.

peeps who came i shout out to you: Micah Bizzard, Sunnylyn THBX, Layne Peterson, ORTH, Erica Lewis, Matt Arnone, Jimmy Dunagan, Jay Morris, Logan (weird hanging with a dude who's song is ALWAYS STUCK IN YOUR HEAD), the cute little high school duo from SOTA, USF journo-biology major-poet, Jello Sakkis, Ricky London, Tinker Greene's posse, Sus-oner Gevirtz and Lawrence Kearney and Steve "Steve D." Dickison...woot Rachel S. and David H. for inviting me...had a blast...

and then a pod of us headed over to Lucky 13 for beers and whatnot...lot's of men on men photo booth action...Logan talking about Owen Hill...spilling beer down Layne's shirt, Matt Arnone as The Best, Jimmy Dunagan's shirt, Micah goosing everybody, THBX rallying for a happy birthday Bizzard sing along, people going horizontal...



plans to maybe skate this weekend at the DMV curbs...plans to attend S. Larsen's B&B reading on Thursday...plans to watch The Devil's Rejects tonight not eating cheese soup and whatever else at 1am...plans on working more on my little new book...plans to hopefully book another reading between now and my SPT thing with Norma...plans to conjure an actual bonafide heat-wave this weekend using sigils observed in the clouds...plans on working on that Rude Girl video trailer with Matty Arnone...plans to keep on trucking on the toilet through The Maximus Poems and Superman The Archives Vol. 1...would also like to wrestle L. Boldt to the ground putting her in a tight sleeper pinching raspberries all over her arms and neck...

and i'll leave you for now with a poem

Dear Chris Carter

I've even sat through the Stephen King episode more than once

Forced my girlfriend to watch The Lone Gunman before Queer as Folk

When I hit puberty you moved the show from Friday to Sundays
Just knew we were on the same page 'cause of that

Defended Doggett and Reyes I don't even know how many times
bought the action figures and postcard books
kept a scrapbook, attended the convention in San Jose,
met Cigarette Smoking Man nee Cancer man, joined the fan club
read the fan fiction and the novels and comic books
bought the coffee mug
taped all the episodes then
bought all the episodes on VHS 

then bought all the episodes on DVD

look, i'm just saying the 

The X-Files I Want To Believe
broke my heart
and it hurts me just a little to admit it

remember when I wrote this for my Small Town bio

David Horton even mentioned it on his blog

"John Sakkis is fanatically excited about the upcoming The X-Files movie. John Sakkis still keeps his 15 year old lamented The X-Files fan club membership card in his wallet. John Sakkis has Fox Mulder and Dana Scully action figures displayed on his bookshelf, he posed them so that they are holding hands. Girls think this is more creepy than boyishly charming. John Sakkis met William B. Davis (aka Cigarette Smoking Man aka Cancer Man) in San Jose at an X-Files convention in 1994, John Sakkis got Bill's autograph on a glossy photo that now hangs in his office. John Sakkis has read all of the X-Files tie in novels as well as the Official Guide to The X-Files vol. 1-9. John Sakkis is an OG X-Philes (from the Greek root "-phil-" meaning love or obsession), he used to keep a scrapbook of newspaper/magazine articles that centered on the show. In his high school shop class he sandblasted "THE X-FILES" onto a sheet of glass and turned it in for a grade, the grade was a C and he was mad. John Sakkis writes monster poems collects records."

then I saw I Want To Believe 

and kept waiting for the movie to really begin

and then the movie was almost over

and nothing really happened 

besides Mulder's beard

I felt foolish in front
of the poetry community
when my mom/Santa bought it for me last Christmas
I knew we'd be headed back to Best Buy
just saying Chris Carter 

you really broke my heart

I Want To Believe you know
your movie sucked but I don't
so just leave Mulder and Scully alone
even Doggett and Reyes
you killed off the Lone Gunmen so whatever
but still, just let it go and let the X-Philes
enjoy the memories


Sincerely,
Johnny

Jay gets his Emmy. Congratulations Jay!!!

Sunnylin Thibodeaux and me walking down South Van Ness post Brandon Downing and Lindsey Boldt reading at Brandon Brown''s house with Patrick James Dunagan in the back and photo by Micah Ballad right before Bender's...

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The Shunt available at SPD

mid-bender a few weeks ago...i think this girl's name was Nora...she wanted to talk about her life...it's probably 3:30pm at this point.

photo by Brandon...

these are the people i hung out with this weekend...





and this is the lunch i made on Saturday...

new issue of WORKING CLASS is up...The Faith Issue!

hooray Megan...